In the previous post I mentioned my experience with the mechanic/cashier at Jiffy Lube, and shared how I felt led to repent after reflecting upon our conversation.  He and I literally went back and forth for about 10-15 minutes about the price of my services!  I was definitely in RARE form.  I shared that he decided to honor my GROUPON, and only charged me for 1 quart of the oil I wanted.  Following his adjustment I was STILL adamant about paying what I owed for the increased quality of the oil I had put in my car, but he wouldn’t let me.  On the drive home I seized the opportunity to reflect upon the conversation and my actions, God really spoke to me through this entire ordeal…

After acknowledging the age of my vehicle (vessel) and knowing the distance it has to travel daily (and even weekly), I already knew that I needed the high mileage oil.  I was waiting on the guy to ask me, and was prepared to pay the difference for the quality…. I just wasn’t aware that I’d have to pay for a complete “upgrade” to my services.

For starters, I figured that I would only be responsible for the marginal cost of the upgraded product… wrong!  There are different levels of sacrifice for the varying levels of anointing,… I mean oil.  I wanted the best oil for my vehicle and  I was willing and prepared to pay the marginal cost, but the cost of the next level came with an unforeseen expense.  I couldn’t help but parallel this situation with my Christian walk.  Yes, I’m only 2-?, but I have been on the journey since the age of 2.  For lack of better terms, I have a lot of miles under my belt!!!  I have MUCH further to go, but over the past 2-3 years I’ve realized that I want to fully experience the power of God!  I want to see and do everything I can during my natural life… hear stories of how the very same God has changed/shaped the lives of others.  I want my faith to be tested.  I have been told to “be careful what I pray for”, but I guess I’m a glutten…

As a ministry leader it is truly my desire to worship, teach, and speak from my experiences with Him.  There are some things I can express without the one-on-one session, but going to the next level in worship and ministry will require a different level of personal sacrifice.  No, I don’t have a clue of what it will cost, but I’m sure it will be more than worth it.

Back to the oil change… as we were wrapping up our conversation, and I am insisting on paying for my oil, the cashier says, “It won’t work the way you want to do it, it still won’t be enough.”  He said soooooo much right there!!!  After we’d had a somewhat mild discussion about me wanting to pay for what I asked…and I even agreed to pay for the upgrade, he reminded me that it still wouldn’t be enough.  I IMMEDIATELY thought about my relationship with Christ…  No matter how hard I try… how much I argue, fuss and fight… I will NEVER be able to FULLY pay Him the debt I owe for my gifts.  He’s ALREADY PAID THE COST…. paid it in full with his life!!  So yes, in order to move to the next level of ministry and to experience what God has for me, I will have to make unforeseen sacrifices…  It may end up being more than I ever thought it would be, but in the long run the benefits are immeasurable!

I walked away feeling HORRIBLE, but received a few wonderful blessings….  1. You answer the call before you fully know the cost…  2. If you want the upgrade, you have to be willing to make the sacrifice… and, 3. When you try to do things your way you will always come up short.  #SimpleTruth